i have to give a presentation tomorrow about this paper
and i’m beginning to freak out because a lot of the shit i’m doing in the paper is completely experimental math and analysis wise and i’m kind of afraid everyone’s gonna question my methods and LAUGH AT ME even though i’m sure that won’t happen because srsly that shit like never does it’s just an irrational fear
anyway i’m really scared of this stupid paper and i
I JUST NEED ENCOURAGEMENT THAT IT WON’T BE OKAY AND THAT I WON’T BE LAUGHED OUT OF SCHOOL AND HAVE ANGRY CLASSMATES MURDER ME IN THE PARKING LOT ;-;
K so after working diligently on my paper for the last three hours like a responsible adult...
I now have six pages (close to half done-ish) and a direction I want to go in! I have the sources and the idea, all I need to get is the data and incorporate and word it correctly and make a few externality models and such. FINDING OUT WHAT I WAS DOING WAS REALLY RHE HARDEST PART. I AM SO RELIEVED.
And now it’s time for a break because that paper has been on my brain all day…
So I’ll play vidya until like midnight and then get another page/section done while I wait for a reply to my IMPORTANT QUESTION from my professor. ~^~
People really like to excuse their actions on the internet with “it’s just the internet” but quite frankly I think that the way that you act when you genuinely believe your actions are of no consequence says much, much more about you than you might be willing to reveal to others
This oh lordy. I see people acting like jackasses on the internet all the time and admittedly, I used to too, but I wisened up a while ago and by this point seeing the things that people do and say (and especially say, particularly about their PERSONAL LIVES, because omfg why would you even want to tell random people this stuff about yourself), it just blows my mind.
Quick guys, anyone ever see an animation about a man in a gray/dark room with glowing cubes or panels and every time he touches them a world is created around him (city streets, etc..)? Pretty sure it was done in Maya. I think it was on Motionographer like a million years ago and I need the name of it.
REALLY HAPPY about the comic thing that I drew for the Earthday Festival today and it was just a really glowing and sweet letter and he included an iTunes giftcard with it too WOW WHAT A COOL GUY I FEEL SO FLATTERED AH
And speaking of that, I went to that thing yesterday and it was PACKED and just thinking of how many people must have seen it makes me all warm and gooey inside
And the woman working at the booth where my comic was said that the MAYOR had been to the booth and seen it
THE MAYOR, WOW
I just still can’t believe it happened, how great. ‘^’
It's really really easy to write this sory that I'm writing
I’ve steadily been working on it every day
Sometimes I get over a thousand words, sometimes I get a bit over 500
I don’t have a set limit (beyond getting over 500), I just write as much as I feel like each night before going to bed
Anyway that was beyond the point
It’s so easy to write this story in particular because I suppose I have no idea what I’m doing or where I’m going. At this point, nothing makes sense in it, really, and aside from a few things I want to insert, nothing has to make sense. I’ll figure it all out as I get further in, I’m sure